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Full Moon Capricorn | Acceptance of Your Flaws | Mirror Mirror on the Wall|Self-Care vs. Self-Critcism |

The Moon aspects to Capricorn is something I know all too well. There is a blaring Moon conjunct Saturn in my 2nd house in Libra. As I write this I cringe but I also feel compelled to tell you about it, girl so pull up a chair. My experience with my controlling, overbearing, histrionic, narci-mom, and the band of  hardcore emotionally stunted women that came before her (my grandmother & great grandmother) was a consistent uncomfortable emotional breakdown that I had to face all my life.  Along with an aristocratic delusional fantasy.  From the latter I learned to carry to myself with pride, to hold my head up high, and that if I don’t have any money I don’t have to look like it. Very much Capricorn allowances. Me: “but what about my feelings?” Them: “Girl what about your feelings? You better suck it up and move on.”  On the flip-side in order for them to be pleased with me, which they never were, I had to stuff my hurt feelings. And since they are were hurt all the time by the shrewd judgment and the lack of wiggle room for my identity I had the hard times being seen, heard and felt. The lack of intimacy in my life was glaring and my string of  co-dependent relationships (friendships and lovers) where I often begged for reciprocity is just one symptom. The other symptoms are not knowing my limits, pushing myself too hard, not knowing when enough is enough, and not trusting my inner knowing.  So, the aspects of this full moon will bring up discomfort that may trigger your inner critic instead of being sensitive to your feelings. Sometimes we need to push through and sometimes we need to love ourselves through.4ea347f684b61e72afa226b77159303f--princess-serenity-moon-art

Moon/Capricorn is about how we treat the parts of us that we see as a weakness. These lessons in my life have led to a painful lose of my sensitivity and then the heroes journey of working hard to gain it back. The heroes journey back to being one with my inner child has given me adult wisdom and understanding towards this human condition. This pain that this full moon can lead to feelings of self-defeat which can be a bottomless pit. Which can lead to a obsessively wanting to get rid of feeling like something is wrong or the sense that “I am bad.” If we feel that we are bad, we will treat ourselves and others bad.  Don’t walk on egg-shells and put the covers over head in defeat or depression. There are no issues that are bigger than the source of all life.  Face the monster you think has reared its ugly head in the mirror. The answer is to up your self-care quotient and turn that monster into a fair princess. Know that your rhythms will sometimes leave  send you high flying and other times low in the valley. Take this opportunity to reach out to your soul community. Do some hand massages with each other and bring a box of tissues. This full moon has brought out for me just how over my relationship with my narci-mom really is. Its never going to be the perfect mother-daughter experience that I’ve always wanted. In order for me to move on to explore other areas that have more energy flow I have to accept that blaring flaw just the way it is.

Libra Full Moon | Becoming a Feminine Vessel

I wasn’t expecting to be inspired to write anything. I have been practicing ordinary connection to my body. I have a tendency to over use my mental-psychic gifts. I also need to heal my wound to focus on meeting goals. So I am willing to not work on anything and lay around and just BE even though that stresses my out, aka, it puts me face to face with my wound. My intuition is cracking her gentle nurturing whip on this point with me. So I have no expectations or goals for writing this. I am just going to express myself for the sake of expressing myself. The more I do this, the more I am present, and in tune not with my goals but with essence and loosening my assemblage points, heavy burdens, & misery. I am moving in and out of work. Like a beautiful lanky winding dance. I imagine myself belly dancing in the full moon light for my enjoyment. My rags are flowing, my eyes are open towards the moon & stars, and my silhouette is enveloped in the full moon light. That is when something hypnotic takes over me and my movements become meaningful, full of magical lilu energy. A lot of who I am is for no reason to the non-enchanted. To the naked eye my life has no meaning. Appeasing this perception has been my wound to heal lately, that perspective that I’m not living  up to my potential because I wasn’t born to have goals. My purpose to live. Live and be an example of what its like when you allow and accept. Its a really simple life with a wide range of experiences. But sometimes I get caught up in making goals and I choke the life and meaning out of my life.

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This Full Moon in Libra, which is my birth moon has allowed me to see the beauty and purpose in my personal essence. The non-control of the feminine receptivity vessel is an entity and world unto itself and that is what I am, what I have, and what I give. I listen. This listening becomes a mystical experience. Listening becomes absorption of the essence of nature and what your eyes can see becomes a sensation. A sharing happens and a relationship with life holistic ensues. There is a natural healing in the wind blowing through the green-yellow leaves on trees. If you listen you from your window pane you may hear a story of open-ness, allowance, acceptance of what is, and the willingness to let it all fall away when it’s over. Listening without needing to respond is the secret of feminine creation. You don’t have to stress out to make anything happen. You can listen, breathe and absorb the healing gifts, ride the waves that have always been all around you. Libra Full Moon has reached me and touched my spirit and has deadened my resistance to simple rest and enjoyment of the dew drops that I love so much that lay on top of glass blades in the morning. My sensitivity to life is my life. I share it with all of you. Peace to you and Silim (meaning: ‘health to you’ in ancient Akkadian-Sumerian  language)

Virgo Full Moon|Chakra Tarot Reading |Perfecting Your Development | Aligning Your Chakras | Pit Stop

For this reading I pulled Tarot Cards and Runes for each Chakra. I asked spirit simply to show us how to align our chakras. The Virgo Full Moon is a great time to take detailed action to nurture ourselves and find the 0 point of neutrality for the betterment of not only ourselves but humanity.  For you own personal readings go https://ayaofthedawn.com/awakening-light-box/

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1 |Root Chakra | The Star XVII | Rune Magic Berkano |Red

Magic can happen within a twinkling of an eye, if you blink you might miss it. You have been planting the right seeds and pulling out the right weeds for months and maybe even years. NOW, right now is the time for an extraordinary transformation and a departure from surviving, procrastination, and low self-esteem to creative inspirational living. When you are inspired by divine energy you will have an abundance to energy to share with the world and those you love. The healing of your root chakra has helped you to develop into a compassionate God/Goddess. You have achieved Self-forgiveness and now you are ready to share your many gifts with the world. Literally out with the old in with the new, next, now. You may have uncomfortable stuck past life issues that are family related that may be too stubborn to just go away.

Meditation Recommendation:  Your Divine Inner Child knows your talents and how far they can take you. Lay on your back and place your hand on your pelvic region and imagine your inner divine mother/father loving your inner divine child from before birth, infancy, toddler, adolescent, teenager, and young adult. Watch this child’s gifts develop. See your Inner Divine Mother guide this blessed child into the heavenly gates of creative/business fulfillment and having it all. Family, Love, Career, Happiness, Healing, and Hope! Focus on the positive growth you are seeing in your life. The seed is sprouting and the shell will fall off naturally.

2 |Sacral Chakra | Vision Quest (Hanged Man) XII |Rune Magic Sowilo | Orange

It is time for you to take the time you need to take to  sift through your life and keep the fish and throw away the bones. Keep the values and beliefs that truly still hold meaning to you. For you are being called to higher level of Self-responsibility.  Clear out past stale energy, be aware of what and who penetrates your space, and start going on those morning jogs. You are being led by your guides to higher level of self-mastery. It is the next common sense step to initiation. Self-understanding may mean a change in morals, values, and interest. Where you may have been into esoteric studies you may not have been into the discipline of transformation. This is a whole new way of living. Finding the foods that fuel you and bring you enjoyment can be a challenge. Studying sexual ritual and understanding the meaning behind the power that you wield in the universe is a new responsibility. And it is a task that you can and must handle. You are going through a test of your will.  It is healthy to achieve fulfillment and you will go on an adventure to find the highest energetic expression of your pleasure.

Daily Ritual Suggestion: Make yourself a calendar according your biorhythms and moon cyclesand make it a daily habit to pay attention to how you feel after you eat, how much sleep you are getting, what exercises your body likes the most, what you watch on television and how it affects you. Make adjustments accordingly

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3.Solar Plexus | Ace of Air |Rune Magic Kenaz | Yellow

The truth of who you are. Searching around in the dark for who you are and finding your innermost truth. It is clear to you who you are, what you want and where you are going. You have been a great student super studious and attentive to your lessons. You have been through many trials of weighing decisions because its been a past pattern to force yourself to please others, not wanting to hurt others feelings and now you are standing firm in your yes and your no. Now you will be rewarded with newfound clarity of what is good, what is useful, and what is needed. If you are still struggling with these issues it is only a  matter of time before you say Eureka! I don’t care about what others think about me, I am going to live my best life.

Ritual Practice | Be Decisive. Throw things away. Only keep what really holds meaning and inspiration to you.

 

4| The Heart | Two of Earth| Rune Magic Wunjo |Green

Your heart is full of Hope, Joy, Expectancy, Prosperity, and Good Luck. In order for your heart chakra to stay open and aligned roll with the punches.  Joy is not promised to you everyday. Change is the only thing that is consistent. One day you are on top of the world and the next day it’s the others turn to receive their 10’s across the board. Stay open and available for success and failure.  Success and Failure are both your divine teachers and all is the Goddess. Joy

5 |The Throat | Four of Air | Rune Magic Thurisaz | Blue

The tarot card and the rune are telling opposite messages to one another. The 4 of Air is saying that the conflict you are experiencing  will take a turn for the best if you play a passive role and give it a rest. Take on a ‘this too shall pass’ attitude. The Thurisaz Rune is telling you to take a stand, stand your ground, and even fight if it comes to blows.  Whatever the experience be true to yourself. It is ok to stand up for yourself, what you believe in and your boundaries. I love this message. It is wise to use discernment when there is conflict because how you use your power of communication is situational. Not all situations call for the same response. The goal of whatever responses you have in life is to make sure you are experiencing movement towards ascension and highest Self.

 

6 |Third Eye Chakra|The Medicine Man|Rune Magic | Purple

Your Vision is Crystal Clear and you are empowered from within and this because soon you will be blessed by your ancestral spiritual /physical inheritance. Your power is not going to come from force of will but by BEING. Your power is in your essence and this is a part of your inheritance. Its swell of energy that your ancestral line has worked really hard to attain. And you are the focal point of that power. You are in a space that you are willing to help humanity, your community, and your family within the gifts that are given to you by the Goddess. Relax into your BEING & ESSENCE. By Being you will allow the inheritance of your ancestors to materialize in the realm of your existence. This could be physical material possession like homes and land or it could be substantial spiritual gifts. Your ancestors have created a dharma that is all honed in on you at this time.

7 | Crown Chakra | The Three of Fire (R) | Rune Magic Blank | White

You may think that the more effort you put into the your spiritual walk the more rewards you will receive. Like saying a million hail Mary’s to get into heaven. Or spending your life like Mother Theresa being a Marty for the the poor in spirit  and neglecting your own personal needs. To that point Mother Theresa admitted on her death bed that she wished she would have enjoyed her life more and gave herself some pleasure and enjoyment. Fate & the Great Mysteries are at play with you and conspiring with and for your highest and best forward movement towards your calling, mission, love, & fulfillment. So you don’t have to work so hard. You can allow life to support you and wait on the right time, right person, and right ideas to come to you.  You are medium for the mystery to flow with, come to, and be with. The more simple you make your life the easier enlightenment can reveal itself to you. Because its there for you NOW. It always has been NOW and that is the great mystery.

 

 

 

Cancer & Capricorn Axis |Cultivating an Intimacy With The Earthy Soulful You

These planetary transits have helped me empathize with Capricornus people. I have been thinking about my Narci-mother a lot. She is a Capricorn Sun conj. South Node. I have been seeing that Capricorn is about forward movement, block out all emotions and get to work. Lets get to the end result. Her motto was always suck it up and move on. There is no room for emotional evaluation. Needs are secondary to the goal and task at hand to get to the goal. That is why during these transits a lot of us are being called to put our past emotional issues to the side and get to work, or allow the universe to work things out for you when it comes to your issues. It’s a feeling that you will miss out on something if you don’t move forward. But you cannot do your best work if you do not feel good.

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Exhaustion! How can one work so long without the heavenly rewards of emotional fulfillment. Not I said the water sign, quack quack!  The Capricorn stellium (Pluto, Sun, Venus, Saturn, & Mercury) transit with the  New Moon in Capricorn on the 16th is pushing forward like a locomotive even if your energy is dried to the bone and that also being your emotional well.  In my spiritual counselling sessions since the beginning of the year I have been hearing all of your cries about this issue. We are all experiencing a huge growth spurt. The growth spurt is bidding farewell the ego and relying upon spirit in greater and greater amounts. Getting comfortable with The Goddess sittinng in the seat of her thrown in our personal and collective consciousness. The Ego is super uncomfortable with this notion. The back lash from the ego is real. And this where the lessons begin. Mother Nature is like . . . Class is in session.  On top of that you have Mars conjunct Jupiter in Scorpio sextiling Capricorn and that makes you feel like if you can’t keep up something is wrong with you. Mars and Saturn are both very egoic planets at home in their respective signs.  Jupiter is asking you to expand upon the truest parts of your will. You are being pushed to do what you truly want to do and show the world your shining glory.

Cancer and Capricorn |#IntimacyWork

Cancer and Capricorn work super well together if Capricorn isn’t a dominating bully and Cancer takes responsibility for their emotional well-being. Both Cancer and Capricorn are aware that life takes work. Capricorn is all about the type of work that reaps rewards of the physical harvest. Cancer understands the hard work of cultivating an intimate caring relationship within the self and outward with others. When these two signs are healthy there are no two better types of people to have in your corner. With these planetary transits you are being asked to transform and deepen your intimate sensuous relationship within, so that, it radiates outward as a soulful expression of who you really are and what you represent.  The personal becomes the impersonal. It’s the 4th house/10 house axis of the nurturing of the seat of your soul, your home, which can represent your body, and the business of presenting yourself to the world from within your own soulful psychic infrastructure.  Nurturing and honing in on your desires to be nurtured and nourished. Creating an intimate world where your desires are manifested through the way you move your hands to touch the world around you. Feeling how gentle/harsh is your touch. Allowing your awareness to be placed on the subtle, the present experience becomes your nourishing point. Your space of quiet sensuous attention becomes an erotic zone of pleasure, a threshold of delight, that you share with those you trust. Its the magic of eating a muffin baked by someone who puts love in every inch of their cooking love ritual. The joy is in that muffin. Even if that muffin is full of sugar it is better for you to eat than the muffin that is fat-free and cooked in a staunch environment.  This is all about loving yourself and letting your self be with yourself. Being comfortable in your skin when you are alone. Letting that inner child enjoy a bag of hot fries and dancing to your favorite twerk music naked and cleaning up the house. Whatever floats your cosmic bodies boat. The end result is that you will feel self-fulfilled enough to also tell yourself yes, I can nurture myself all the way through the process of working towards my big goals in life. No need to be team #burntout. Go back and forth between Capricorn and Cancer.

A lot of us are starting from scratch. We don’t know this kind of love. It is unfamiliar. So the lessons seem harsh and the ending seems far. While others of us are deepening this amazing everlasting bond between body and soul. So I am going to give you a list of fun dates to have with yourself. The lesson I have l learned in self-love is that if you are consistent your self-love will win.

  • Whenever you feel overwhelmed, wrap yourself in a big blanket, get your favorite foods, get your teddy bear, watch some Netflix and chill
  • Relax,warm bath with candles, some music, and essential oils, bubble bath, bath bombs, I often leave the showering running as well, while I’m soaking in the tub, it creates the best feeling
  • Have an actual date night with yourself, flowers, wine, use wine glasses, candle light, cook yourself what you really want to taste
  • Private time. Don’t do anything work related, don’t post anything, don’t do any marketing, just stop, spend time with yourself without sharing on social media, if you have a great idea keep private, don’t post it on social media.
  • Dance. Twerk. Belly Dance. It doesn’t matter if you are trained. The body just like to be free from thought. If you feel silly or stupid or insane you are doing it right, especially if you start laughing
  • Be naked, and forget you are naked and go outside and get the mail, (that’s a personal fear of mine)
  • Sexually fantasize about whatever and who ever you want
  • Make a first step to do something you have been thinking about for a long time
  • Make a calendar of  your plans for a week – month
  • Whatever you are doing right now, let that be enough
  • Go to the metaphysical store look around and touch stuff and see what calls out to you, either get it, or make note of it
  • Sing at the top your lungs
  • Call a friend and talk about bullshit
  • See yourself as sacred and don’t take yourself too seriously at the same time. Because you are both earthly and heavenly
  • Use your meditation time to dance
  • Feel into your kundalina
  • massage yourself with beautiful enriching oil
  • Give yourself hand reflexology
  • Keep track of the Moon Transits
  • Draw, sit under a tree and draw what you see, draw a still life in your home
  • Paint
  • Get a Tarot Reading!

I love you guys! Peace.

New Moon in Sagittarius |Reflections and Adventures |A Tale of Two Hurricanes | My Journey Through the Caribbean

This year has sent a lot of us literally running for our lives. Fires, earthquakes, volcanoes, and hurricanes. I personally experienced the latter. I was living in the Virgin Islands having the adventure of my 30’s. In my 20’s I ran away with my twin flame to Venice Beach to do a martial arts movie and sell art, I become a walking bohemian. It ended roughly, my ego was bruised and I went back home with tail between my legs. It created a new fire and spark in me to create my life on my own terms and never depend upon another to do anything, to go anywhere, or to have an adventure. I set out to create a Self that was autonomous and willing to go at life alone. In July I embarked on a bold and courageous journey to move to the islands as a single woman not knowing anyone and never having even visited first. I had my wits, my common sense, my strength, my guts, and my spirit guides. I learned to ask my Guardian Angels to Support me to choose everything in my life. With no other compass I had to rely on spirit intensely for the first time in my life. And they never steered my wrong and my faith grew to epic proportions. I even looked around and found myself . . . get this, Happy. Then something out of a horror flick crept itself into my still ignorant false sense of security. With just the announcement of a possible Hurricane Irma that would hit St. Thomas sent me into a fight, flight, or freeze mode. I was anxious, fearful, and dry crying because It wasn’t a certainty until it was a few hours away whether Irma was going to hit us directly. The island is tiny, at at only 32 square miles. After it hit and I was safe my security was still shaken. Nothing was the same and nothing would ever be. I was changed forever. I saw myself using a machete to get through the jungle that blocked our drive way and passage to the homes of my bunk mates that had completely demolished. My community that was already close knit became ever closer on the island with nightly pot luck dinners with conversations about looters coming into our ritzy community and how prepared everyone was to fight and even kill anyone coming to loot. I am a black woman that was surrounded by my Caucasian brothers and sisters and I felt like they were talking about killing my people. I felt so torn. Even more torn about whether or not I should stay. It became like Lord of the Flies, who was going to be sacrificed or who was willing to sacrifice themselves for the good of the group. Was I going to stay and help on the long trek to rebuild the community or was I going to leave with the hopes that I could recover my online businesses, get peaceful sleep, take showers, have electricity, and not worry about food supply. I decided to leave and had to face some of my closes allies and friends looking at me as if I were betraying our pact of loyalty. So I headed to San Juan and less than a week had passed and I was faced with the same turmoil from Hurricane Maria, except, I knew no one beyond my Airbnb host and I only speak up to spanish III’s worth of spanish.  The shelter I was in was wet, and lots of glass windows and doors had been shattered, our diet consisted of ham & cheese sandwiches for breakfast and lunch and rice and spam at night. But, hey! I survived! I made onto a humanitarian flight that paid for my on-boarding and connection flights back to Atlanta. My initiation was just beginning.

I know for sure without a doubt that spirit is the most important, everything is a symbol in connection to spirit, it can and will all be swept away if ever mother-nature knows we need the lesson. Coming back to Atlanta I feel like a grateful princess warrior. Without a dime to my name just seeing green trees outside is a luxury. Hurricanes snap all trees in half, scalp every piece of green off of everything rooted into the ground, and even the sky heaves after the hurricane has left. My soul was aghast and I all I could do was be in awe of the Great Mother. That is how I plan to continue into 2018. Happy New Year!

November 18, 2017 New Moon Scorpio in the Houses | Shadow Integration

This year has been awesome, bad, good, and ugly for us all. This Scorpio New Moon has come in the nick of time to give that much needed martian energy and push to keep  us going and energized when we feel low on strength.  The charisma of Scorpio is that of a light at the end of the tunnel. Scorpio is that ex drug addict, ex pimp, preaching and sweating, and maybe slipping a cuss word in the pulpit, who rose from the ashes and lives to tell it like t.i. is to the inspired and mesmerized congregation. But first we have to surrender to our wounds and self-sabotage patterns in order to finally give them over to Mother Nature. When we admit to our most out of the way pain it makes a space for us to be aware of how Spirit is blessing us right now, instead of seeing our blessings as something that we will receive at a future date. Gratitude for what you have right now is a positive affirmation in the face of transformation. How you transform you  will be taken with you on the other side. Nothing is matured and harvsted that isn’t worked for.  During our weakest moments of hurt, pain, and crying for mercy mother nature gives us our biggest gifts of mercy. Scorpio New Moon is our opportunity to go with the flow, with this energy we have extra help. We need it. We need to see, to know, to examine, so that we can turn in a new direction. Not that we are guilty of committing a crime, but may be in danger of not making to the other side if we don’t heed Scorpio stinging warning. Change or else. We feel it, it feels exciting, with Scorpio in each house it’s not can we do it, its how we do it. Be kind to your healing, be kind to your transformation, come closer and draw nigh to the Mother.

These videos were done live in my Facebook group Tarot Readings and Awakening Support. I am going to go through the houses and how they may be affected by the New Moon in Scorpio for November 18, 2017. The first video is houses 1,2,3, and 6. The second video is houses 4,5,7,8,9,10,11, & 12. I pull cards from the Shaman Deck and the Ask your Oracles Deck.

Scorpio New Moon House and Tarot Reading Part 1

Scorpio New Moon House and Tarot Reading Part 2